Okay call me demented or strange but when hermit time ends there is a sadness. Hermit time for me is when every one is out or the house far a while. The only time taht I can say this is a bdsm house hold. Should any of my lifestyle friends pop by well they will be served by this naked slave with out question as to what they are Dominant or sub. You would think that would be enough for me.
Every day that I go through hermit time leaves me wanting so much more. I feel awkward in my clothes when I put them back on. Like any other addiction or enjoyment the first time is the greatest. The rest always is an attempted to gain the same feeling. I have come to the conclusion that I need not to be owned but instead to be used intensely for the time period that I can offer. Not an easy task for me as it is for those with more free time . I believe that means that either I find friends that can close their mind to the idea that I am friend or find some one who has the same predicament and would need the intensity also.
Frustrating but now I think I have focus on my needs. I was talking to such a Domme but it would have meant at least a 2 and 1/2 hour bus trip there. I do not have that time of time so again I must look closer to home . SO much easier if my wife wanted a naked slave. Instead well I have to find and evil minded , sadistic at times , controlling and uncaring as to my vanilla life dominant. Whose schedule can match mine live close by can control my hermit time with surprise visits and can receive . Yet not interfere with my family obligations and vanilla life. Eureka that is it the perfect Dominant. Hell that should be easy to find! Okay then now back to reality
I have to give 168 hours of service to little one for winning the challenge and hopefully paint for Mistress Lisa.So I do have things to look forward to. I shall of course offer spring cleaning for those in the lifestyle and I am off to a munch this Saturday i think, perhaps I might just meet that Dominant whose needs match what I have to offer. Dreaming, ya Hermit time starts tomorrow at 9 I believe. So I always have that to keep me going perhaps green panties and white stay up nylons just to be different what do you think?
