A drawback to training with out a dominant is non-completion of the feelings of slavery. Yes the frist day was fun. The pain the idea of hanging my nipples off the garage door where if some one looked they would see. So the chance of discovery intensified the situation it did not complete the act. It was unfinished.

At the munch, the start I was treated as a submissive but by the end of the evening I was left wanting a lot more. I had given very little service and conversation of vanilla nature drew me out of my submissive role and was just one of people talking about groceries. I did try to stimulate conversation in the direction of bdsm by asking questions of Sir and his feelings on certain areas of the lifestyle but it did seem as if we were the only ones talking about the lifestyle.

The weekend was full of vanilla times and today when I hung my nipples for training well they have toughen up , there was no chance sightings as there was no cars driving by. So a very boring start to the day and week for me.

Everyone is back home so the chances of anymore real traing or hermit time has gone or reduces to chance happenings. No one seems to need any naked slave work done. No new contacts over the weekend hmmm, could It all just be a fantasy? I guess and one day I will wake up knowing that my chance has passed me by that it is over I guess