I accepted a friend’s invitation to attend a meeting last night. I had spent some of the day with him catching up and after supper he said to me time to go play. Of course, even though I knew it was not lifestyle related the comment put me in an interested mood. I got the feeling he was worried that the evening would be boring for me.
So off we went. A bunch of guys like this I have never met before. The first thing I noticed was the gleam in thir eyes. It was like seeing little boys that have just walked into the room on Christmas day with all the packages decorated and they stood back taking in the moment. The next thing I noticed was how clean they mostly were my size or larger. Some of them looked like they could play linemen for a football team.
There they were and I will not use the word playing as it is not accepted well by the group so I will say operating very much like being in the real world of trains. Yes miniatures trains were the interest. Funny how those really into an hobby, are so willing to share their knowledge. They knew I was not a train person but they freely opened up and answered all my questions. It was almost like I was an attraction some one to convert or maybe I was some one they could explain their interest to there for fulfilling their need to expose their lust for this hobby. Hobby is a light word as I feel these guys were a lot more intense then I have seen in the lifestyle in a very long time.
I think that I s what I enjoyed the most was the intensity they showed and that my friend was so alive. That and the idea that these guys have huge hands yet can fabricate pile of lumber out of a Popsicle sticks. All and all an interesting experience!
Now of course I cannot end it there. I loved it for much reason some of them related to the lifestyle. First I was in the middle of a bunch who love miniatures next my friend forgot to tell me to bring slippers as you are not allowed to were your boots inside, so I spent all night walking on a cement floor hmmm dungeon sounding is it not. My feet have not yet warmed up so a lasting feeling much as good spanking would. The only other little engines that cause this much happiness would be a vibrator. I found out that real men do not grow up they keep their zeal for things such as these. I of course have come away with all sorts of fodder for future fantasies.
SO no it was not torture and yes I did have fun.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Serving
I sometimes wonder if being a person that likes to do things for others has predisposed me to having my submissive side being the dominant of the two. I enjoy facial expressions when some one has acknowledge some thing I have done for them and that certain feeling in side. It is very similar to when a dominants pats my bottom and says well done or verbal informs me that my conduct was good. I enjoy the attention of doing things for other people making them feel good.
I do not enjoy being with an owner or dominant that does not pay attention to what I do or offer them. Just like an unattended child or puppy I act up . Many have seen the bratty side and the answer to any brat is to find out what they was everyone to see what they have to offer. In my dominants side I also like to please but that is different it is complicated as you want the slave to achieve flight through their desires. SO service e of a service sub , pain for a pain slut and protocols for a protocol sub last but not least slavery for a slave.
As a slave it is easy to be rewarded for my efforts a touch , a word and yes a damn good session . As for dominant I gain it through the grimace on their face as they shudder through orgasm, or in the screams as I hit their G spot. Their forced thank you at the end of a session which is sometime so protocol driven that I doubt if the slave can remember doing it after coming down from their flight. You are sitting at the edge of disaster and with little acknowledgement as you teeter on disappointment for the slave or injury for them. They never know how close unless there is an accident and then they still ask for more. I know I have in the past. So lets hope that dominants do have that nasty evil personality that can say tough to be you and mean it otherwise they just might go insane.So next time I am with a dominant I just might lick an suck them off or rimm that ass a little better and with more effort and not a task to do badly so I get another beating, just to say thanks for giving me my desires for attention through what I need the spanking,whippings and humiliation Thanks for accepting my service because that fill a whole other desire.. well that is if the brat does not show up.
I do not enjoy being with an owner or dominant that does not pay attention to what I do or offer them. Just like an unattended child or puppy I act up . Many have seen the bratty side and the answer to any brat is to find out what they was everyone to see what they have to offer. In my dominants side I also like to please but that is different it is complicated as you want the slave to achieve flight through their desires. SO service e of a service sub , pain for a pain slut and protocols for a protocol sub last but not least slavery for a slave.
As a slave it is easy to be rewarded for my efforts a touch , a word and yes a damn good session . As for dominant I gain it through the grimace on their face as they shudder through orgasm, or in the screams as I hit their G spot. Their forced thank you at the end of a session which is sometime so protocol driven that I doubt if the slave can remember doing it after coming down from their flight. You are sitting at the edge of disaster and with little acknowledgement as you teeter on disappointment for the slave or injury for them. They never know how close unless there is an accident and then they still ask for more. I know I have in the past. So lets hope that dominants do have that nasty evil personality that can say tough to be you and mean it otherwise they just might go insane.So next time I am with a dominant I just might lick an suck them off or rimm that ass a little better and with more effort and not a task to do badly so I get another beating, just to say thanks for giving me my desires for attention through what I need the spanking,whippings and humiliation Thanks for accepting my service because that fill a whole other desire.. well that is if the brat does not show up.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Capture by a sun beam
One of the nicer feeling in the winter for me is to stretch out in a sun beam in the afternoon. If feels great and relaxing and like an old cat I tend to drift off quickly in it. It also holds it's dangers. The sun moves and soon I am laying naked in a very cold area of my bed as the beam has moved off. It is a funny feeling if you can stay awake for it to feel the shadow starting to move upon you. Much like the old cliff hangers as the hero is struggling to stay atop a mountain as his footing is disappearing under him so it is with the sun beam as I tried to shift to remain in the sun while the size did dwindle. Turning and twisting I finally ended up on my side. This afforded me the sensation of the shadow touching my front and back confining me to the spot to stay under the sun's gaze. Waiting until the last spec of light to dance off my body on to the wall of my room.
Funny what we will do to achieve the tactile sensations of our desires.
Funny what we will do to achieve the tactile sensations of our desires.
Friday, March 28, 2008
am I not looking for a Mistress
A question put to me and i said no I am not. I find Mistresses and Masters or Doms have an opinion that they know what submissive's need. They call some submissives slaves, in my opinion this is wrong . Slaves have always been taken they did not submit to their will but forced to by conquest , sale or given by some one who had enslaved them. SO there is the first problem yes Virgina there is a difference in mind set and will. It could be a slave mind they are thinking about , but that to me is Africans that had no hope freedom nor enjoyment. Instead thousands of miles away from all that they knew. All they faced was doing what master wanted or punishment not where my head space is that to me is a doormat
Subs want to submit in my opinion they do not need anything to be taken they tend in my opinion to respect anything in leather and high boots.And that is fine it fulfills their needs. need honour, similar wishes and desired but most of all I need communication.
Next i am a switch I know both sides so I know when a Dominant is providing less then I would in a similar situation. I am very intolerant towards lazy dominants. Dominants must pay for their slaves some how part of the payment for a slave is activity At first the brat shows himself with lack of activity but later respect can be lost and the relations then deteriorates into unsatisfied partners. I have not really given up just If they do not live up to my needs I know I will not live up to theirs.
Now I play with a few Dominants when they have need of me but it is only play sessions, domination has to on my terns an in a fashion that I respond to. Otherwise instead of respectful slave you have one ready to revolt. So i would love to find a Mistress with an evil mind, the ability to enjoy what she is doing and the want to satisfied the needs of a slave. She must have a strong will and a great energy level , oh nails might be nice too!
Any one can try just remember i do bite.
Subs want to submit in my opinion they do not need anything to be taken they tend in my opinion to respect anything in leather and high boots.And that is fine it fulfills their needs. need honour, similar wishes and desired but most of all I need communication.
Next i am a switch I know both sides so I know when a Dominant is providing less then I would in a similar situation. I am very intolerant towards lazy dominants. Dominants must pay for their slaves some how part of the payment for a slave is activity At first the brat shows himself with lack of activity but later respect can be lost and the relations then deteriorates into unsatisfied partners. I have not really given up just If they do not live up to my needs I know I will not live up to theirs.
Now I play with a few Dominants when they have need of me but it is only play sessions, domination has to on my terns an in a fashion that I respond to. Otherwise instead of respectful slave you have one ready to revolt. So i would love to find a Mistress with an evil mind, the ability to enjoy what she is doing and the want to satisfied the needs of a slave. She must have a strong will and a great energy level , oh nails might be nice too!
Any one can try just remember i do bite.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Submission is not gauranteed
My slavery and I do not really care about anyone else's ideas of it as they cannot offer me only I can.
I do not submit because you have taken the title or call yourself Dominant I am not a submissive man .
I do not submit because you wish it there are no wizards no magic at least not powerful enough for you to click your fingers and in a puff of smoke I am transformed to a submissive male.
I am polite to those that have so named themselves as Master or Domme I follow etiquette.I do not bend knee nor will for them.
A submissive male not a bone in my body will say yes to that.
en·slave
To make into or as if into a slave.to make a slave of; reduce to slavery: His drug addiction has completely enslaved him.
—Synonyms enchain, shackle; control, dominate.en·slave
Yes that is what you have to do, you have to enslave me. You possess the strength, the will , the want and the desire to capture my soul and enslave it. For this you will need energy you will have to constantly on top of your game. You have to be an excellent communicator. Know what you want with me and then take control. Like a wild beast I will wait to see weakness in you do not let your guard down Expect me to stay trained if you are constantly training me. Let me languish or take it easy the beast becomes what they were wild non submitting.
What do you get , if you seek that stallion that obeys no one but you the tiger that drinks from your hand but bites all others that is what you get. Is this about sex? it is about power and the exchange of it , power and your ability to control it. My power and whether or not you can take it from me or at the least make me want to give it up to you .
Not everyone's cup of tea nor run of the mill slave at least in some eyes . I am not a submissive male nor doormat yet to the one with strength and ability I will lay and their feet and for your command.
I do not submit because you have taken the title or call yourself Dominant I am not a submissive man .
I do not submit because you wish it there are no wizards no magic at least not powerful enough for you to click your fingers and in a puff of smoke I am transformed to a submissive male.
I am polite to those that have so named themselves as Master or Domme I follow etiquette.I do not bend knee nor will for them.
A submissive male not a bone in my body will say yes to that.
en·slave
To make into or as if into a slave.to make a slave of; reduce to slavery: His drug addiction has completely enslaved him.
—Synonyms enchain, shackle; control, dominate.en·slave
Yes that is what you have to do, you have to enslave me. You possess the strength, the will , the want and the desire to capture my soul and enslave it. For this you will need energy you will have to constantly on top of your game. You have to be an excellent communicator. Know what you want with me and then take control. Like a wild beast I will wait to see weakness in you do not let your guard down Expect me to stay trained if you are constantly training me. Let me languish or take it easy the beast becomes what they were wild non submitting.
What do you get , if you seek that stallion that obeys no one but you the tiger that drinks from your hand but bites all others that is what you get. Is this about sex? it is about power and the exchange of it , power and your ability to control it. My power and whether or not you can take it from me or at the least make me want to give it up to you .
Not everyone's cup of tea nor run of the mill slave at least in some eyes . I am not a submissive male nor doormat yet to the one with strength and ability I will lay and their feet and for your command.
Diferent
A key word in the life style one that is very hard to twist or mis-interpret. if you say my lifestyle is more traditional or more extreme in an attempt to classify what you like or want you will and surely you find an arguments some where in the room . Most words used to describe the lifestyle are words of personnel interpretation or at least levels or degrees of the meaning.
Different means just that not the same as it can be close but not identical. Close friends can love the lifestyle have similar views enjoy some interaction but they are different. They way they approach it , how they live it , how they communicate all different.
I will not list what my deep thought are for others to read and say oh yeah that is me to because that would be an interpretation on the part of the reader putting their fantasies and experience onto my words and meanings. Those conversations are not meant to go on between you r fantasy and your needs . They should be for a sialogue , done face to face Dominant to slave
What this blog says is we have different needs and wants under the banner of the Lifestyle. Different definitions of what we are and what qualifies as meeting needs and communication. Communication different ? yes so different in how we expect things to happen and how they do again usually based on interpretation of rules that are in no book nor have one definition . If anything interpretation must be the worse master we have to please.
The old saying a picture is worth a thousand words is quite true the reverse use a thousand words to describe a picture like the game postman will seldom return an accurate visualization of what you have seen. So different is a good word for me.
Different means just that not the same as it can be close but not identical. Close friends can love the lifestyle have similar views enjoy some interaction but they are different. They way they approach it , how they live it , how they communicate all different.
I will not list what my deep thought are for others to read and say oh yeah that is me to because that would be an interpretation on the part of the reader putting their fantasies and experience onto my words and meanings. Those conversations are not meant to go on between you r fantasy and your needs . They should be for a sialogue , done face to face Dominant to slave
What this blog says is we have different needs and wants under the banner of the Lifestyle. Different definitions of what we are and what qualifies as meeting needs and communication. Communication different ? yes so different in how we expect things to happen and how they do again usually based on interpretation of rules that are in no book nor have one definition . If anything interpretation must be the worse master we have to please.
The old saying a picture is worth a thousand words is quite true the reverse use a thousand words to describe a picture like the game postman will seldom return an accurate visualization of what you have seen. So different is a good word for me.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Okay call me demented or strange but when hermit time ends there is a sadness. Hermit time for me is when every one is out or the house far a while. The only time taht I can say this is a bdsm house hold. Should any of my lifestyle friends pop by well they will be served by this naked slave with out question as to what they are Dominant or sub. You would think that would be enough for me.
Every day that I go through hermit time leaves me wanting so much more. I feel awkward in my clothes when I put them back on. Like any other addiction or enjoyment the first time is the greatest. The rest always is an attempted to gain the same feeling. I have come to the conclusion that I need not to be owned but instead to be used intensely for the time period that I can offer. Not an easy task for me as it is for those with more free time . I believe that means that either I find friends that can close their mind to the idea that I am friend or find some one who has the same predicament and would need the intensity also.
Frustrating but now I think I have focus on my needs. I was talking to such a Domme but it would have meant at least a 2 and 1/2 hour bus trip there. I do not have that time of time so again I must look closer to home . SO much easier if my wife wanted a naked slave. Instead well I have to find and evil minded , sadistic at times , controlling and uncaring as to my vanilla life dominant. Whose schedule can match mine live close by can control my hermit time with surprise visits and can receive . Yet not interfere with my family obligations and vanilla life. Eureka that is it the perfect Dominant. Hell that should be easy to find! Okay then now back to reality
I have to give 168 hours of service to little one for winning the challenge and hopefully paint for Mistress Lisa.So I do have things to look forward to. I shall of course offer spring cleaning for those in the lifestyle and I am off to a munch this Saturday i think, perhaps I might just meet that Dominant whose needs match what I have to offer. Dreaming, ya Hermit time starts tomorrow at 9 I believe. So I always have that to keep me going perhaps green panties and white stay up nylons just to be different what do you think?
Every day that I go through hermit time leaves me wanting so much more. I feel awkward in my clothes when I put them back on. Like any other addiction or enjoyment the first time is the greatest. The rest always is an attempted to gain the same feeling. I have come to the conclusion that I need not to be owned but instead to be used intensely for the time period that I can offer. Not an easy task for me as it is for those with more free time . I believe that means that either I find friends that can close their mind to the idea that I am friend or find some one who has the same predicament and would need the intensity also.
Frustrating but now I think I have focus on my needs. I was talking to such a Domme but it would have meant at least a 2 and 1/2 hour bus trip there. I do not have that time of time so again I must look closer to home . SO much easier if my wife wanted a naked slave. Instead well I have to find and evil minded , sadistic at times , controlling and uncaring as to my vanilla life dominant. Whose schedule can match mine live close by can control my hermit time with surprise visits and can receive . Yet not interfere with my family obligations and vanilla life. Eureka that is it the perfect Dominant. Hell that should be easy to find! Okay then now back to reality
I have to give 168 hours of service to little one for winning the challenge and hopefully paint for Mistress Lisa.So I do have things to look forward to. I shall of course offer spring cleaning for those in the lifestyle and I am off to a munch this Saturday i think, perhaps I might just meet that Dominant whose needs match what I have to offer. Dreaming, ya Hermit time starts tomorrow at 9 I believe. So I always have that to keep me going perhaps green panties and white stay up nylons just to be different what do you think?
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