Degrees of separation
I have been busy asking lifestylers about the difference between a slave and a sub I asked only those of course that believe in a difference. The major difference and no not accurate to 6 one hundreds is that they believe a slave has or should have no hard limits. Some said it was about how negotiations are done, others said trust, a few said slaves will serve anyone owned or not , I think that is call a doormat but we will let them dream.
So for me the consensus of a very small group of Dom/mes share the idea of hard limits being the difference and the next major similar choice was trust. SO my list of hard limit s will show how far I am away from the ideal slave.
First Non-consensual.
This is my kink that everyone’s this also includes children, those that cannot make legal decisions, and I love this expression I got from a Dom I only play with my species.
Body modifications.
Yep I want to keep all my body parts and not have needles or piercing pushed through nor do I need a tattoo saying Mistress so and so on my ass reduces the re-sale value of the slave.
Family, business and friends.
This could be a soft limit depends but right now I would not want that to happen. This includes photos of my face just do not want to see tht plaster all over the internet.
Masks, gags and confinement in small dark areas.
Just somewhere I do not want to go.
Penile insertions.
Pretty free in anal play however my penis is a one way out an exit only.
Legal.
Yes well might be convince to be outside naked in non populated area or when the chance is minimal but prostituting my self or breaking of laws no way. So sort of a soft limit at times as a friend said depends sometimes.
Scat
Again do not mind things in the ass, things that come out clean just no excrement on me or me expelling it touching or anything else. Out of a clean ass I will rim, eat grapes just no crap please. Sort of a soft limit bad choice of words I guess but hard limit is shit.
So that give me a total of 7 hard limits 3 soft and 4 hard limits. Ten degrees from me being an ideal slave, or at lest my ideal. Some of them might fall if I really trust some one other would never.
Now trust that cannot be measured nor can I give it must be earned I would call it payment for my slavery is the work a dominant has to put in to earn it then we can see about what limits can be pushed a little.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Just some things I am pondering
SO in the true sense of the word should a slave be subservient to any dominant showing them respect and observing a pecking order in life or should they only show that to the one or ones that own them? If some one wants to be a slave and is un owned does that mean they can stand like a free person equal to all amongst the dominant ones until they are owned?
Seems that the stories I have heard about and how I started was if you were a slave you served all in the house or club. Any dominant could use you or reprimand you for errors and punish you for infractions. That did not mean if you were owned tht once your owner found out that you would not be punished again.
In my more recent past this has sort of changed around . You do not have to act subservient to dominants other than your owner and who they diecide you should. So when not owned I am at liberty to argue , talk down to and not worry about any consequences. This to me opens the door to teasing dominants, as I know there will be no retribution. That allows me to escape from the mindset of a slave and more into a bratty sub. That is not a good thing caused me to go after what I want not try to please the desires of others.
Certainly for me the definition of a slave is simple but I feel political correctness and more not observing basic rules has caused being a slave a very complicated thing.
Along those lines I remember hearing a supposed slave tell his master whom he did not want to play with at a private party. Yes I know all the risks of un protected play but tell your owner who and how you can be used is just not slave like but like all things now a days rules seem to be bent for those that cannot work within them almost like saying do not reward those that can just change the rules so they can. Of course I might be the dinosaur here looking for the old days as they are owned and I am not.
As I said just some thoughts
Seems that the stories I have heard about and how I started was if you were a slave you served all in the house or club. Any dominant could use you or reprimand you for errors and punish you for infractions. That did not mean if you were owned tht once your owner found out that you would not be punished again.
In my more recent past this has sort of changed around . You do not have to act subservient to dominants other than your owner and who they diecide you should. So when not owned I am at liberty to argue , talk down to and not worry about any consequences. This to me opens the door to teasing dominants, as I know there will be no retribution. That allows me to escape from the mindset of a slave and more into a bratty sub. That is not a good thing caused me to go after what I want not try to please the desires of others.
Certainly for me the definition of a slave is simple but I feel political correctness and more not observing basic rules has caused being a slave a very complicated thing.
Along those lines I remember hearing a supposed slave tell his master whom he did not want to play with at a private party. Yes I know all the risks of un protected play but tell your owner who and how you can be used is just not slave like but like all things now a days rules seem to be bent for those that cannot work within them almost like saying do not reward those that can just change the rules so they can. Of course I might be the dinosaur here looking for the old days as they are owned and I am not.
As I said just some thoughts
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Droppings
There is inventiveness about Dominants. I have said I wish not to have hard limits but there are some things that are a must, Those that cannot be consensual, animals, children and those that cannot make a legal decision. Family is sort of in there and those that do not consent of course.
There is penile insert, which would take a long, long time for me to loose as a hard limit. Water sports I am fine with but yep the other end yuck, yuck, and yuck. Scat is yuck.
So how do I get around the hard limits bit that I am not supposed to have? The other points I think most normal dominants would agree but some like the humiliation caused by scat, yuck. I do not mind the food being smeared on me ketchup mustard as long as it is done prior to digestion like the before.
This was brought up to me in a chat with a Dominant. He understood the wish no to eat but perhaps the dropping which turned my stomach right away and I had to say no way could I. He then suggested that what if I cleaned myself prior to play and then he could stuff my anus with grapes and let them ferment and that said I have no problem with. Then he said what about eating them. Squeamish I thought and thought and could not really find a reason not to. I have rimmed others that were clean as he pointed out to me. So he felt that the grapes once deposited could them be place on another of his slave, in-between his cheeks and then I could munch down.
Some how now this sounded humiliating and disgusting but of interest. As the main thing of scat that I do not like is what it is. Then he ask what if he clean himself out and put the grapes inside of himself that way he could plop them out to give him the sensation of well for a lack of a better word crapping on me.
I still do not feel a hundred percent about this and I need not worry as he lives in California but the real question is how many hard limits should a slave be allowed or should be allowed if their definition of a slave is to do what the dominant says with out right to say no.
There is penile insert, which would take a long, long time for me to loose as a hard limit. Water sports I am fine with but yep the other end yuck, yuck, and yuck. Scat is yuck.
So how do I get around the hard limits bit that I am not supposed to have? The other points I think most normal dominants would agree but some like the humiliation caused by scat, yuck. I do not mind the food being smeared on me ketchup mustard as long as it is done prior to digestion like the before.
This was brought up to me in a chat with a Dominant. He understood the wish no to eat but perhaps the dropping which turned my stomach right away and I had to say no way could I. He then suggested that what if I cleaned myself prior to play and then he could stuff my anus with grapes and let them ferment and that said I have no problem with. Then he said what about eating them. Squeamish I thought and thought and could not really find a reason not to. I have rimmed others that were clean as he pointed out to me. So he felt that the grapes once deposited could them be place on another of his slave, in-between his cheeks and then I could munch down.
Some how now this sounded humiliating and disgusting but of interest. As the main thing of scat that I do not like is what it is. Then he ask what if he clean himself out and put the grapes inside of himself that way he could plop them out to give him the sensation of well for a lack of a better word crapping on me.
I still do not feel a hundred percent about this and I need not worry as he lives in California but the real question is how many hard limits should a slave be allowed or should be allowed if their definition of a slave is to do what the dominant says with out right to say no.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
A boring day ahead
I am not an anal person well I am but I am not. I love ass play but my character is far more relax I go with the flow. But there are things that annoy me. Buses that do not run on time, people that are late for appointments, blogs that are not there and excuses that are lame.
It is most annoying tht a blog goes quiet just because they are on spring breakor have to buy a car. Most inconsiderate of them to interrupt my reading of them how dares they. LOL just a little fun shot at a friend who has complained in the past about blogs disappearing.
A quiet day ahead for me and I think for many others or at least changes in their routines. So much has changed, munches have gone by the wayside, long chats with a variety of people are absent. Every one now makes toys so no real need or should I say want to purchase there are some web sites with great quality items. Almost everyone writes stories or journals, there are so many sites and clubs out there that we no long have the need to go underground with hankie codes and wink, wink. Every one talks of safety and safe words. There are list upon list of do’s and don’ts and how to’s that if they were all printed we would loose all of the rainforests.
I think I am missing. yes the old days of seedy adventure and fear. Searching through ad upon ad looking for key words such ” very strong minded or you need to be able to follow instructions “. The walking into a club and not knowing what you would walk out with all the excitement that you felt like a kid again at Christmas. Private parties and doors that opened and closed so quickly that you thought your ass was chopped off. The looks from those disgusting people that you hope would talk to you. Having some one walk up to you and tell you they wanted and off you went for a night of play with a stranger trusting that they had as much to loose as your did if they went too far but so wrapped up in the moment that the allure was too strong to say know.
Yes I know totally unsafe, I know all the dangers that we skirted the times it could have gone either way and the bruises and marks to show that we were not in a gentle lifestyle. I think I do miss excitement of fear that was always present yep missing the old days and the excitement of entering the unknown throwing caution to wind for the change of fulfillment of desire. So time for a coffee I guess and hopefully I will be ravaged by a postal women or a meter reader or maybe ……
It is most annoying tht a blog goes quiet just because they are on spring breakor have to buy a car. Most inconsiderate of them to interrupt my reading of them how dares they. LOL just a little fun shot at a friend who has complained in the past about blogs disappearing.
A quiet day ahead for me and I think for many others or at least changes in their routines. So much has changed, munches have gone by the wayside, long chats with a variety of people are absent. Every one now makes toys so no real need or should I say want to purchase there are some web sites with great quality items. Almost everyone writes stories or journals, there are so many sites and clubs out there that we no long have the need to go underground with hankie codes and wink, wink. Every one talks of safety and safe words. There are list upon list of do’s and don’ts and how to’s that if they were all printed we would loose all of the rainforests.
I think I am missing. yes the old days of seedy adventure and fear. Searching through ad upon ad looking for key words such ” very strong minded or you need to be able to follow instructions “. The walking into a club and not knowing what you would walk out with all the excitement that you felt like a kid again at Christmas. Private parties and doors that opened and closed so quickly that you thought your ass was chopped off. The looks from those disgusting people that you hope would talk to you. Having some one walk up to you and tell you they wanted and off you went for a night of play with a stranger trusting that they had as much to loose as your did if they went too far but so wrapped up in the moment that the allure was too strong to say know.
Yes I know totally unsafe, I know all the dangers that we skirted the times it could have gone either way and the bruises and marks to show that we were not in a gentle lifestyle. I think I do miss excitement of fear that was always present yep missing the old days and the excitement of entering the unknown throwing caution to wind for the change of fulfillment of desire. So time for a coffee I guess and hopefully I will be ravaged by a postal women or a meter reader or maybe ……
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Exercising
I have always been able to get up sports. Any type of competition actually I love to compete. However getting into shape by exercise rather then play myself into shape has always been a difficult for me. Any drudgery activity is like that for me. It is so easy when some one is cheering you on rather then the silence of a gym or a solitary work out.
The only motivating factor for me is when I am with a dominant. First of all is is set as a task and secondly they can make it so much more interesting eith when they are there or not. Th e idea of being in a body harness and having to go on the stationary bike for ten minutes can cause a lot of interesting sensation suck as the ropes pulling and pinching areas of the body. Having times set by yourself does not mean much if you do not make them however when you do not make them with a dominant involved usually means an unpleasant sensation of some form. These have always increased my ability to meet objectives when a dominant is around.
Perhaps they should open up a gym Dominants are us I am sure they could come up with all sorts of incentives toget into shape.Well guess I have wasted enought time got to get back to the exercising again oh what is that an email well guess I have to answer it might be importatnms it is in my junk mail folder but hey it could be imporatant couldn't it? Right!
The only motivating factor for me is when I am with a dominant. First of all is is set as a task and secondly they can make it so much more interesting eith when they are there or not. Th e idea of being in a body harness and having to go on the stationary bike for ten minutes can cause a lot of interesting sensation suck as the ropes pulling and pinching areas of the body. Having times set by yourself does not mean much if you do not make them however when you do not make them with a dominant involved usually means an unpleasant sensation of some form. These have always increased my ability to meet objectives when a dominant is around.
Perhaps they should open up a gym Dominants are us I am sure they could come up with all sorts of incentives toget into shape.Well guess I have wasted enought time got to get back to the exercising again oh what is that an email well guess I have to answer it might be importatnms it is in my junk mail folder but hey it could be imporatant couldn't it? Right!
Friday, February 27, 2009
Pet peeves
Did I hurt you? a question that irks me in a session.
First off if it is delivered with a wry smile and a little sadistic laugh it is great. How ever when it is a real questions it worries me. First off being spanked, whipped caned or tortured hurts. Just in case some one did not know that. SO it is a dumb question, I tolerate the pain to get the rush simple is it not. The questions also suggest that the person I am playing with either does not know me or is not reading me right.
Can you get up? well if I am not tied down I can just tell to get up if I cannot you will know soon enough. Is not the fun of bondage trying to get away . does not your ability show when you slave cannot. Actually the use of the word can in a question not delivered sarcastically is annoying and worry some slaves should be told not ask in my opinion. Of course if I am with a Dominants and they use the aforementioned irks well not my place to say anything is it!
First off if it is delivered with a wry smile and a little sadistic laugh it is great. How ever when it is a real questions it worries me. First off being spanked, whipped caned or tortured hurts. Just in case some one did not know that. SO it is a dumb question, I tolerate the pain to get the rush simple is it not. The questions also suggest that the person I am playing with either does not know me or is not reading me right.
Can you get up? well if I am not tied down I can just tell to get up if I cannot you will know soon enough. Is not the fun of bondage trying to get away . does not your ability show when you slave cannot. Actually the use of the word can in a question not delivered sarcastically is annoying and worry some slaves should be told not ask in my opinion. Of course if I am with a Dominants and they use the aforementioned irks well not my place to say anything is it!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Dungeons are good for thinking
I have put myself into my mental form of a dungeon for quite some time now. I have thought and pondered on the idea of my definition of a slave what I have done in the past how I started where I am now.
Where I started was many years ago after watching an edition of Rifleman where mark was kidnapped and roughed up.(for those of you that do not remember he was the rifle mans son) I went to sleep and had wild dreams about the idea of kidnapping and what they could make me do. I transposed myself into the role of the victim. I was eight years old. From there any chance I got to be the looser and face the consequences I did. If it was a gauntlet run then I did I did not give in my list of limits nor tell every one I had a safe word.
When I first found and embrace the lifestyle it was in a very secretive club with few rules for slave. They were written on the wall as slaves knelt waiting to be used. Any one superior to you can use you in any fashion they wish to . No DM no safe words and no limits . Trust is all you had, all you needed because of the scrutiny you had to go through to get in.We knew of the rules the Superior ones had . Play as you wish slaves must be able to be used again in 48 hours. The last part was very clear that mean you might get bruised but not willfully harmed.
All was good NOW with the Internet and services which only request a valid email address those rules I started with are must like saying bind fold yourself and walk into traffic the drivers know they should stop. This fear might not be here if I were younger and uncommitted to family but I am.
I also like to fit in thought I am a bit outspoken at times so when someone asks what re your hard limits I give them a list that I think they want to hear to show how safe I am. I do this because they ask and give control over to me which I found to be harmful to relations for me in the lifestyle. I do not want love from this lifestyle I want to feel humiliation of defeat. I want to be treated as the 90 pound weakling being given a wedgie. Though I might be smart then those in control of me or more successful then them in academics I enjoy feeling helpless at their hands as they spit upon me and call me slave.
SO now I think it is time to get back out on the meat market with no limits but lots of conversation before I accept them to be my owners. No safe word but an assurance they are sane. So now I think it might be time to remove all the coverings from hiding what I am. the question now would be Do I shave off all the hair signifying that I am adult male bring me back to being less then the Men and women that might own me or wait for them to tell me what to do. If I knew how to attach a poll I would
Where I started was many years ago after watching an edition of Rifleman where mark was kidnapped and roughed up.(for those of you that do not remember he was the rifle mans son) I went to sleep and had wild dreams about the idea of kidnapping and what they could make me do. I transposed myself into the role of the victim. I was eight years old. From there any chance I got to be the looser and face the consequences I did. If it was a gauntlet run then I did I did not give in my list of limits nor tell every one I had a safe word.
When I first found and embrace the lifestyle it was in a very secretive club with few rules for slave. They were written on the wall as slaves knelt waiting to be used. Any one superior to you can use you in any fashion they wish to . No DM no safe words and no limits . Trust is all you had, all you needed because of the scrutiny you had to go through to get in.We knew of the rules the Superior ones had . Play as you wish slaves must be able to be used again in 48 hours. The last part was very clear that mean you might get bruised but not willfully harmed.
All was good NOW with the Internet and services which only request a valid email address those rules I started with are must like saying bind fold yourself and walk into traffic the drivers know they should stop. This fear might not be here if I were younger and uncommitted to family but I am.
I also like to fit in thought I am a bit outspoken at times so when someone asks what re your hard limits I give them a list that I think they want to hear to show how safe I am. I do this because they ask and give control over to me which I found to be harmful to relations for me in the lifestyle. I do not want love from this lifestyle I want to feel humiliation of defeat. I want to be treated as the 90 pound weakling being given a wedgie. Though I might be smart then those in control of me or more successful then them in academics I enjoy feeling helpless at their hands as they spit upon me and call me slave.
SO now I think it is time to get back out on the meat market with no limits but lots of conversation before I accept them to be my owners. No safe word but an assurance they are sane. So now I think it might be time to remove all the coverings from hiding what I am. the question now would be Do I shave off all the hair signifying that I am adult male bring me back to being less then the Men and women that might own me or wait for them to tell me what to do. If I knew how to attach a poll I would
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