ay I or can i

I seemed to ask those questions a lot. May I serve you, can I help you , may I speak can I cum. I seemed to be asking permission to do what I like to do and I am just wondering why? I feel I am always seeking approval for being me. I guess I would feel ostracized if some one did not say it is okay to like being spanked or whipped. It is totally normal to enjoy the infliction of humiliation upon your self. I would look in the mirror and see a funny old naked man instead of an object used to please Dominants.

The bases of my submission is getting caught. My hermit time is all about that. My brattiest behavior is asking some one to notice me and that to me is being caught. Heaven forbid that in the past when i was younger said to me I had homosexual feelings . Yet a Male Dominant can use me as the wish . That is okay as He is a Master right?

Is this on l my thing or is it only a sub thing or is it part of the lifestyle? All the Dommes that used a strap on with me wanted me to ask to be fucked in the ass. Most of the Dominants nearing the end of a session wanted me to beg for more . One Male Dominant that was staunchly said he was not homosexual. with his dick rubbing my rear entrance saying beg for it little girl . Was he justifying that it was alright to sodomize me because I was a little girl?

Would seem to me a lowly slave that I try to give away the control of my self only to be confronted by those that need re-assurance from me that it is okay to do what i crave and they want. Sounds like some love sick vanillas sitting at a restaurant asking if the food was good , are you enjoying yourself, we could go some where else if you like, instead of enjoying the evening as it develops. And we think we are liberated and free thinkers . What happened to Dominants amuse themselves and slaves are abuse, where has all the pillaging gone the taking of slave for sex and toil?

Perhaps if we standardized maybe. Slaves with their menu of what they offer in hand and the Dominant then can could just check off what they would like. Hmmm! Yes two floggings a side order of bondage oh yes some cbt for dessert. Oops sorry that comes with hot wax no just not good for the digestion .

Okay my mind has just flushed and Tuesday approaches wit hermit time and possibility of getting caught perhaps a challenge to stimulate those Dominants on Alt perhaps a dis claimer at the beginning saying No Permission required slave loves to be spanked , humiliated and abused" oops forgot I do not thing All Dominants read it is just easier for them to ask permission before they do things. Hmmm so who is suppose to say May I or can I?