Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Hard limits

Exactly when did I get hard limits. I did not have any when I started. i knew only the word yes followed by a Sir or Miss. Yet over the years I suddenly have hard limits. I have heard horror stories of those that did not and paid for it during a session but I have been blessed that I have not had bad experiences of that nature at least to the point tha I could not walk away.

I have always had fantasies of slavery or being a captive since the age of 9 or 10. In those fantasies I never remember saying I do not like to do tht I would just be forced to. My fear at that age was to be in girls dresses later of course it went to being naked in front of people to being abused . Fun fantasies at the time I guess that could have been my hard limits yet now I have done all of that and they were all fun.

When I was younger there was not a lot of emphasis put on safety at least in my mind. Something pushed into my ass hurt , being spanked or hit with a belt hurt but the reward of a young women caressing gmy penis and balls was worth it. Penetration by a male hurt then was orgasmic to have some one up my ass. I enjoyed not having a choice I never thought of trust I thought of wild fun forced to so all the things that I never spoke of.

I looked at my hard limits and realize I have never tried most of them. I do remember showing up at an apartment in the seventies stripping and walking into a party . As a slave i was open to any one requests. I remember coming home with bruises a sore rectum and being totally drained for days. All those people had was common sense no lists of what I wanted or would not do. SO where did I get the hard limits from.

I think the worry of others is part to blame, news report of monsters that lurk in the shadows and now the internet has part also and age might have a good deal too. Mind fucks is another and I will blog on that another day . With checklist and protocols listed every where on how you should meet or talk the verification with some one who nows some one who knows them. Just makes you head spin.

SO I think the hard limit list will be few in nature and the and a list of titled " I would like to talk about this before you have me tied up on a slab" will appear.

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